Its as if my heart was patiently waiting with for in a cold place all by itself..just waiting. I remember long days of wondering when that moment was going to erupt in front of me and everything was going to make sense…I remember. Listening to love, the strange words that no one seems to fully understand until they are understood exactly as they are…I have been listening. Part of me just wanted to run in the opposite direction simply because it was faced with the idea of being exhausted. I was exhausted of wondering what this was going to feel like. All it took was a moment and you were there, you were real and you were so beautiful. You took that waiting, remembering and listening and thrusted them into my life. They became apart of me because I became apart of you. Do you hear me now? I wonder if we are ever both just sitting in two different places at the same time listening for one another, listening to hear a heart beat..what a beautiful rhythm. Creating something beautiful isn’t easy and some would say quite difficult but when the paper you are writing on is so delicate to begin with..you ease with caution and every stroke becomes as gently as the moon. You make sure that nothing was fractured in the process and in the end you find yourself staring at a master piece, staring at what you have always desired. My advice, when you find this do everything in your power to never let it go. Its not worth the idea of missing something just because the world has their heads turned the other way.
The sparkle in your eye. — that is simply the truth behind what makes you happy. The spark that allows your soul to be free to every giving nature. The destination of what those things are and how they got there is your story to share or keep hidden away is a sealed up memory box. I sure bet it’s beautiful. Each side sealed with a part of you that allows room for you to shine in your brightest moments. I remember filling my memory box, there is still plenty of room. Where ever you go that box will always trail behind you picking up the pieces you have lost along the way. One day as a reminder of the small beautiful moments you were able to share. I left a note in mine addressed to myself to remind me one day if I ever forget…there are times when people are truly happy. At times you will want to remove memories that once made your sparkle shine…don’t throw them away just yet. One day at a time until you are ready to sit and remember.
; press play*
This might take to long and yet you might find yourself wishing it never ends. This is a short film, created from my soul. Every image is simply one I can’t seem to forget, tucked away so deep in a place that I find myself unable to open at times. Created for the world to see if they are willing to open their minds to such a vivid creation. I told them to put captions on the bottom to explain things that most people wouldn’t understand just so you can learn to follow along. I will give you a remote so at any point you feel the need to stop a moment, to remember or to relate – you may. You will easily find yourself pressing rewind, because in everyone’s stories there are moments that you just need to see one more time..just to prove they are real. Then if you should feel your finger pressing the fast forward button it might be because you simply could care less, you don’t understand, or maybe you couldn’t bare to watch. Sometimes its just something you didn’t want to ruin for yourself. Don’t worry, I understand. There were no second takes in this film, just simply caught in the action of my every day adventures. Was this script already written for me? If so why were there so many mistakes within this plot. So sit back and enjoy the show, but remember that this was my audition and I made the cut..that doesn’t mean that your role isn’t any less of an exciting tale.
Keep this warmth inside my embrace as I try my hardest to never let this go. Each passing moment I am entitled to remember. Thank my heart for letting myself unravel in this idea of excitement. You were there. You remember. Right? Lets take a moment to close our eyes and let our thoughts take us back to a time when this made sense, when there were no terrifying moments holding us back. I remember the sand tickling our toes and the grass there as a soft resting spot. That was then and here we are now, unable to see the reality that has become every emotion. We are lost and I can’t seem to find anyone with directions to get me out of here. I lost my map…and at one point it was simply just a map around your heart. Key word in that lost thought is “your heart”..that is the blunt truth in all of this. It was your heart to begin with. So here I am and I have found a way out of this chaos in my head. I have taken so many steps away from you and when I stop for a moment, look back you can see every footprint that I have made. At some points you can see the moments that I stopped walking, and for that moment is where I wanted to turn around. Then again, after those moments the foot prints continue. Here I am, standing by myself with a trail of disbelief behind me. In my pocket there is a soft secret that will never escape. This time I stop, only to breathe for a moment..to understand that from this moment on I am walking on my own..these foot prints have become my own story.
; stay beautiful*
Crunch, the sound of the leaves that have fallen to the ground. The beauty of a leaf that changes colour is quite interesting. I find that we also change colours depending on where we are in our lives and what obstacles we have to overcome. A leaf doesn’t exactly choose to change colours each season, that is just how everything works in nature. Each leaf starts off beautiful and as they change colours they just become more beautiful in a different light. As people we can do this as well but sometimes we loose that ability and our colours become dark and grey, and we aren’t as beautiful as we can be. We have the world to look forward to everyday, we have each minute to smile and laugh. We have the choice to shine brightly every day and to make ourselves as colourful as we wish. I think we should take a lesson form those beautiful leaves falling on the ground or twirling around in the wind. That lesson is to stay beautiful inside and out..there is no need to change who you are or what you look like because there is no one out there that is JUST like you.
You were only in grade nine when you found exactly what makes you happy which made me just as happy. Watching you realize that you are worth more than you think is the most comforting feeling in the world. From that moment on there was no pulling you away from the thing that meant the most to you. You didn’t even start off with a bad sound, just one that needed improvement. You worked so hard to make every beat just as beautiful as the one before. Here you are today and here I am today with the biggest smile on my face. Watching you perform is one of the most beautiful things I have ever been apart of for many reasons. It starts with you sitting behind the fire light with nothing but empty judgement. You begin to play and it only takes three seconds for everyone to stop and listen. You have a way of captivating everyone around you with your music that amazes me. I look into the crowd every time seeing the same reactions and hearing the same comments. You bring people to a moment frozen in time. Hypnotized by the sound of your guitar. You continue to play and the inspiration continues to grow. Dale you move people with your sound, you make them believe in what you do. You make people stop and realize the truth of beauty, the truth of growth. Thank you.
Laughter…is it really that contagious? Can it easily change the entire mood of a room. Sitting in a room waiting for results of some test can be pretty nerve racking, stressful for either the patient or the guest sitting on the chair beside them. The hospital room itself isn’t all that exciting. Its a place that leaves your mind to wonder, usually in the most negative areas. It drowns your emotions while you sit there waiting. It can tear even the happiest faces apart and leave them in the most upset manor. Today I learned that all this can be erased with the sound of laughter. Yes to answer my own question it is contagious. I think the best kind of laughter is not one that you create or even your own its the laughter that spreads around you in a room full of strangers. Tim says one of his silly comments and the whole room is smiling from ear to ear quietly giggling to themselves. It is an odd thing how laughter seems to be frowned upon in such areas such as hospitals, restaurants, elevators…places that just seem to fit the norm. These are the places that need it the most. Laughter makes you feel great inside, it makes you feel alive. We need these feelings in the places that deprive us from it the most. Today I learned that its okay to laugh your head off in public and to be okay with it. So I challenge you to do the same 🙂
; morning perfection*
; after a while*
And you learn that love doesnt mean leaning and company doesnt mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses arent contracts and presents arent promises
And you begin to learn accept your defests with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decoate your own souls, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure…
That you really are strong…
And you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn…
With every good-bye you learn.
; snap shot*
This weekend I took my Camera and went photo crazy, although I do this often but this time I was being pretty serious about it. If you have seen the photos on facebook then you would see that I got a little nuts lol. But then I was editing them and I was actually so happy and proud of myself. I finally see that maybe I do have a real eye for photography and art in that sense. Each photo I took I related to in some way or another. But that’s not what this post is about. This post is about what makes sense to me. There is nothing I love more then looking threw a camera and I have always had that feeling, ever since I could say CHEESE! When I am looking threw a camera, everything makes sense. I understand the world better threw a lens. The best part about a photo is that it never changes. That photo will forever remain the same, the actual scene or people in the photograph may change but that moment is forever frozen in time. Photos are moments in our life time that we have had the chance to experience, to live. They make for memories worth remembering.So never pass up the chance to capture a moment.
; make a wish*
Make a wish..
Wishes surround us everywhere, 11:11..wish chips..shooting stars..wishing wells..and just in our own minds secretly. I love making wishes, who doesnt? At camp in the summer one of my favourite things is when the councellors make their wishes around the fire and then throw that amazing stuff that makes the fire go “ooo” “wooowww” “ahhhh”!! I think wishing opens up the possibility of hope and wonder. They make you excited and they give you a chance to think beyond your normal thoughts of imagination. I also believe you can’t just sit around wishing either. You have to make these wishes happen yourself. You control your life and what happens within your journey. I think that sometimes a wish is like fear because a lot of the time people wish for things they think they can’t have or really want to happen. Sometimes they are to afraid to actually make these things happen so wishing upon it might make it magically happen. A lot of the time people are always faced with obsticles therefore don’t truly go for what they want in life. But we can’t be doing this anymore, it’s time to stand up and make it all happen.
So that is why I love at camp the councellors stand up there and say their wishes out loud..instead of to themselves because that is making a statement..you are making yourself and others around you aware of your possibilities. So stop wishing and waiting, go make it happen. Don’t be afraid to tell people what you are wishing for..let them know, get the word out! Don’t make a wish either and then let it slip back in your mind and forget about it, say it out loud and don’t forget it 🙂
Each moment we come across in our life we should not take for granted. Each moment is a time to live and learn, to see the world at a different angle. Each person that we walk by on a regular basis has the power to change our lives. Wheather you are 5, 10, 20, 75… don’t hold back. You are still living, and life is still happening all around you.
The last week I truly understood what living life to the fullest was all about. My friend Jordan Coe and myself went crazy. We took road trips to Toronto, we randomly ended up in Lindsay. For that whole week we didn’t know where we were going or what we were going to do. She had just quit her job and we just wanted some time together. We certainly spent that time well. I dont know how many people I met, that I reconnected with. We danced the weekend away like usual. The best part about the entire thing was to see our relationship as best friends grow, this happened the most when driving. The best parts were that we got to experience the true beauty of life and the world around us. We got to view the sky at it’s most powerful moments, the stars, the moon, the sun and just the country view. Driving down a long empty road, listening to our favorite jams sitting in silence letting our thoughts wander.
The whole week we just wanted to scream at the top of our lungs, we never took a second to frown or to think negativly. We just went into the week with full smiles and nothing but risks to take.
Which brings me to my question and quote…
Life is like a roller coaster…but what are you going to scream for ?!?!
; after a while*
holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and
company doesn’t mean security,And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head
up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult,
not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if
you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own
soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring your
And you learn that you really can endure…
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.
; what love actually is*
When we imagine? When we kiss?
This is because the most beautiful things in
the world are unseen.There are things that we never want to let go of,
people we never want to leave behind,
but keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world,
it’s the beginning of a new life.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,
those who have searched and those who have tried.
For only they can appreciate the importance of the people
who have touched their lives.
The strongest people are not those who always win
but those who stand back up when they fall.
Somehow along the course of life,
you learn about yourself and realize
there should never be regrets,
only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you’ve made.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,
not how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel,
and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It’s more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly.
Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.
In love, very rarely do we win
but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone
more than you love yourself.
There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone
not because that person has stopped loving us
but because we have found out
that they’d be happier if we let go.
It’s best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that’s available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one
because life is too short to waste on just someone.
If you really love someone never let go,
don’t believe that letting go means that you love best,
instead fight for your love,
that’s what true love is.
Laugh to your heart’s content; you cannot go
through life without it.